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| Do I have what it takes to be a Porn Star? |
11.13am, 22 November 2013: I was sitting in front of the
computer and my mind was blank. Literally. I realized that I had no idea what
to write about. Seriously. Was this what you call a writer’s block? I didn’t seem
to have this problem before. I tried to come up with all sorts of reasons;
maybe I was tired, probably I was not getting great response from my blog and
felt demoralized or maybe I was not meant to be a blogger after all.
Before I started my blog, I told myself, it shouldn’t be
that difficult to write a blog. All you have to do was to write something and
post it up, that’s it, easy-peasie. But the as time went by, I realized it’s
not that easy. The writing part was easy. The idea behind each topic was not
that simple. Besides having to come up with different topics to excite my
readers every single time and the amount of research that was required, the
anticipation of my readers’ reaction made it even harder. And to make matters
worse, the lack of support from your readers especially during the first few
months well that’s really discouraging.
I realized I’d underestimated the job as a blogger. Blogging
is really a full-time job especially if you want to be a successful one. Day in
and day out, one has to be creative and read loads about almost anything so
that you can provide content that are novel, informative yet entertaining to
your readers. You have to be focused all the time, staying true to your niche
always so that you will not confuse and alienate your readers with a
schizophrenic blog. In addition, you have to remain consistence; meaning that
you can’t write as and when you feel like it, but stick to a regimental
deadline of providing posts on a regular interval basis.
My blog’s niche, well to be honest I’m still trying to
figure out what my readers like. Questions keep popping up in my head; Am
I writing too much and too long? Do my Facebook friends from Taiwan, China and
Japan shun my blog because it’s written in English? Should I consider writing
in Chinese or Japanese instead? Are my topics too heavy for them? Maybe I should talk more
about sex or feature semi or fully naked pictures cause people like that right? Am I
that desperate? I guess probably I am. Sigh.
I read somewhere I don’t remember that according to some
blog statistics, only 10% of bloggers survived the first year anniversary,
meaning that most of the new bloggers like ME, will not survive more than a
year. I was thinking, what the fuck! What have I gotten myself into this time?
No wonder, my mind and hand were procrastinating from starting a blog since
eons ago. It’s because that my intelligent organs knew better than my heart.
It’s my stupid heart that wanted to do this all along while the rest of my body
was rejecting the idea profusely.
One of the self-professed blog gurus mentioned that we have
to be consistent in generating original content for if we plagiarized or
recycle contents from others, this will in no time drive your audience away. So
the next question for my readers out there: What sorts of content do you all
want? Anything but please don’t get me turning my blog into a porn site cause there is
just too many already out there. And besides, I want to share my ideas and
writings, and definitely not my fucking organs for all to see. Don’t get me wrong;
just like any healthy male with raging testosterone, I love porn too, just that
I don’t want to be a porn model or star. I want to be a funny and intelligent blogger or
do I?
Being a porn star takes a lot of guts and exhibition, well
literally. Besides getting every of your crevices and appendages exposed,
scrutinized, poked and fondled, you inner soul has to be free and liberated before
one can be a super porn actor. A lot of people went into this industry for many
different reasons. Some do it for the money, some for the fame and some to
satisfy their inert needs of wanting to take control of the viewers’ desires
and having the power to manipulate them during the few minutes of ecstasy. I
believe that this feeling of supremacy is the addiction that kept some porn
stars stay put in the industry.
Of course, the porn industry has hit an all time high since
the invent of Internet as it provides an easy access platform for many sex
business to thrive. Moreover, the revolution of our electronic gadgets makes
pictures and videos easily captured without the assistance of professional
equipments allowing many porn models or stars wannabes an easy way to get into
the industry or merely just to satisfy their secret wish of exhibiting
themselves. Just browse through Tumblr or Facebook and you can get loads of
pornographic materials catering to different interests group.
Porn is so common nowadays. In fact, for the adolescence
males maturing into adulthood and as their testosterone levels spike, sex talks
will be a common topic
among their
peers. With our society becoming more accepting and tolerance towards porn materials;
porn stars nowadays are treated as celebrities too. Exposing the body is no
longer a big deal but in fact most times being favoured upon and encouraged. I
too have my fair share of exhibiting topless pictures to the general public,
which some may regard as soft porn but not to the extent of sexually explicit
photos that reveal my genitals or in any compromising positions.
For those who are like me, guilty of having the need or urge
to reveal sexy topless photos or some fully exposed pictures, have we asked
ourselves why exactly are we doing it? Is it because of our narcissistic wishes
that we want the constant commendation of how good we look or are we just plain
exhibitionists? Is there an inert urge to be a porn model or star but afraid to
go over the fence due to the non-acceptance of such immoral trade by the
general public? Are we obsessed with the power of controlling people’s mind and
their sexual wants and needs? Do we just want to be famous or is it just plain good fun?
There’s no direct answers to all the questions posed. The
only thing that I’m certain is that regardless of what my reasons were, I did
it because I wanted to. I believe that as long as we are responsible in
providing such materials to consenting adults and trying every possible means
and ways of not exposing to the minors, then I guess it’s OK to have our games
played within our own community. Straight adults have their fun and games too
and so do gay adults. Let’s play in our own playground, don’t cross the fence
and I guess then we will be alright.
I am not acknowledging and neither am I against the sex
industry. In fact I am neutral as I believe that we are all adults and we make our own decisions. If you feel for
whatever reasons that it may be, that you enjoy being a porn star, then by all
means entertain us with your good looks and talents. As for me, I will remain
as a closet porn star wannabe as I don’t think I have the fucking guts to do it
just yet. Maybe in the future, I won’t know. But I think for now, I will just stick to
my writings and occasional postings of sexy topless pictures to satisfy my
sporadic urges of becoming a porn model.
I will continue to persevere and try to be consistent in
delivering novel and exciting contents so as to reach my one-year anniversary
goal of becoming a successful blogger. I hope that you guys will be there to
support me throughout this arduous blogging ride. Remember that one word of
encouragement from you guys provides the necessary fuel for me to continue on
with my journey, no matter how difficult it is. You guys make me real for if
not I will just be one of the many invisible souls in the virtual world. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. This
is Jimen signing out! Be happy and be there for me. Cheers.
Great, We should choose to be the real one, do as what the inner want. I will always support you, no matter what you posted, I will read it from the beginning until the end. Have a nice day. T.G.I.F !
ReplyDeleteThanks dude for your continuous support! Have a great weekend ahead! Cheers
ReplyDeletegood luck. hope to see asian musclebears in your blog
ReplyDeleteThanks for your encouragement. Well I may feature some of them in the future but as you are aware, there are already many sites that feature asian musclebears in tumblr and facebook. Go check it out! Cheers
DeleteHonestly, I like your honesty of revealing your inner thoughts because I have the same thoughts as you do, in slightly different ways.
ReplyDeleteYou are proud of your body and your narcissistic sexual instincts caused you to pose those body beautiful pics to seek confirmation and hopefully attract those bears that are your dream guys.
I am a middle aged uncle myself. Consciously I prefer younger men and I seek them for sex. I know most uncles also have similar preferences as me.
I have a fit body and smooth youthful skin so I have no difficulties attracting younger men. In fact too many young men are smitten by me that I became wary that I became mere sex objects to them so I started to restrict myself. It is just too easy and no challenge at all to me.
However, I know other uncles covet those young men as well. Then the perverted and narcissistic part of me started to wonder sometimes if I can beat these young men and be coveted by these uncles as well then, hehe my desirability will be up another level.
I am versatile and mostly tops to younger men as they expected older men to be tops. Sometimes ( very few actually) when I see an uncle eyeing a young guy, I want to compete with the young guy for that uncle. I know I had to offer my backside to be screwed by my contemporary uncle for better chance.
Initially I thought my chances are slim. I had to up my chances by exhibiting my body because that is my biggest asset against the disadvantage of my age. Some uncles will only see age and nothing else. But some uncles do look for body and face so they do take notice of me. In fact my chances are only slightly less than younger men. So much so that I also started restricting this kinky thought.
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ReplyDeleteDear Silver,
ReplyDeleteI am sorry that I have to delete your short story here as I mentioned that I want to keep this site away from being a porn one (even soft porn). But I must say that you are a good writer and please continue to do so. I am sure there're plenty of men out there who would like to read your stories. But as for now, I am keeping my site clean, well adult but nothing too sexually explicit. Once again thank you for commenting and taking time to tell me your story. No offense yeah.
Cheers
Jimen